I was sleeping quite peacefully when the phone rang.  My roomate begins to talk to someone (i later figure out her ex-boyfriend) about suicide, if she still loves him, stopping himself from killing himself, how its not his fault... all of the above.  So i had to get up, put on my headphones, and act busy because i don't want to impose on her serious conversation ot make her feel uncomfortable.  So here I sit... and i was like... hmmm... i never write in this anymore.

I'm going home in a couple hours.  My brother's actually letting me take his car up and back and living without it for the weekend.  I get it next weekend too when he goes to las vegas - he just turned 21. I get to see andy smith, travis, ALEX MARTINEZZZZ!!! meghyn and cheryl.  I'm way stoked.  Cept of course they pick this weekend to have a superhero party with two kegs.  Sad i'm missing it? ummm yes!!! a hundred people in superhero costumes... thats amazing! I love our themed parties.  We had a body paint one last week... it was awesome. everyone wore swimsuits and body painted all over each other.

Classes are going as expected I guess, I should be working harder. But I have all a's and b's.  I've been working really really hard on my next english essay too... so i'm praying i do well and it brings my grade up.

I still hang out with martin and scott everyday.  I can't help it.  I feel so comfortable with them, we always have a blast, even when we just lay around and watch movies (pretty much everyday).  I should start doing new things.  I hung out with alex and andy and their new group a couple nights ago, and stopped by to say hello last night too.  Thats outside of my comfort zone... far outside... but it was still fun.  I've seen scott everyday for the past two weeks.  It started when i took a day away and went to nau with jen... SO MUCH FUN... and its gonna end tomorrow just because i'm going to phx for the weekend.  I mean... thats craziness.  EVERYDAY.  It doesnt help that i have this crush on the boy either.  goodness me.

Taking back sunday/fall out boy is on tuesday.  Thank god.  I need a good concert.  I missed the starting line cuz of confirmation... and there has been jack this year.  I miss brand new. I need to see them live again.

CRISTEN AND I ARE SOOOO ON THE NEW SOMETHING CORPORATE DVD.  You can see clips of it online.  I dont know if thats good or bad.  I mean, i'm not gonna lie... i think its cool.  But it makes us look like these total fanatic groupies.... cuz im on it and i'm like... we're from phoenix... we drove for 8 hours yesterday.  i look like hell too... and i sound funny.  but we're soooo on it!!!! I'm sure we're in a couple of the fan shots too from inside the actual concert since we were just one person back.

she wants to go home
but nobody's home
it where she lies
broken inside

no place to go
no place to go
to dry her eyes
broken inside


i'm listening to the new avril lavigne cd entirely randomly... i like that song alot though... its been stuck in my head.  It's not bad.  A little bitter and a little angry, but occationally its good to hear a female voice since. 

alright... lunch with marting... how ironic :) 

hungrily,
Morgan Rose